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Right now I am in a relationship that might end. It seems fatal and final. I am still in it.
Right now I have a job that I hate. It seems arduous and secure. I have it.
Right now I am considering getting my California medical license so that I can move to California and get a different job. I tried doing that ten years ago, and it didn’t come out quite right.
But hey, why not try again? California has always called me.
Right now, I could read a book, or meditate, or read a book about meditating.
Right now I could Improve and Strain and Worry and Wonder.
Right now I could buy a treadmill to run indoors during these smoky times. I could get one for one thousand dollars from Costco, or four thousand dollars from another place.
I could try to escape.
I don’t have to.
Right now, I can be.
I can do yoga.
Make coffee.
Rest.
Whatever happened to resting?
I will rest.
And, I certainly don’t need to buy a treadmill right now.
I can run on my sister’s treadmill.
She has a million dollars!
