Don't be. By the time you reach that age, things will have changed so much. Maybe you will fall in love with a beautiful partner who will take care of you. Maybe Ben will step up. Maybe you'll love the friends you meet in your assisted living. Maybe you'll do hospice and the nurses will be so kind, and you'll close your eyes peacefully. Death comes for all of us. You will be fine in that moment, and in the time leading up to that moment. Look at you, planning, thinking, and fretting about it now. Let go of the fret. You are a sharp woman. A bright soul. YOU WILL BE OKAY. YOU ARE OKAY.